So, I haven't written in two weeks because so much has been happening lately. It seems like every day is filled with so many ups and downs that I can't even keep track of it all. Coming back to this and writing is my way to sort it all out and remember the things I have seen, the places I have gone, and the many different feelings that have accompanied my adventures. So, if you'll bear with me, here's my life as of the past couple weeks...
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| I found a bakery with the same name as my blog :) |
I can feel the fast pace of life/our constant going catching up with me these days, as I am very tired very often! I am becoming addicted to coffee here because of this--to the point that I can't go without my morning cappuccino or caffe latte. This past Thursday was All Saints Day, which is a legal holiday in Italy, so many of the bars and caffes opened late (like Pascucci) or were closed completely for the day. Of course, Thursday is when I have my 8 am religion class, so I, along with the rest of the class, had to struggle to stay awake without our daily dose of caffeine. Ohh, the difficulties we face here in Rome!
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| Just a typical breakfast at Bar Pascucci--un caffelatte (or cappuccino) e un cornetto (or una torta) |
Classes lately have been difficult, as we are in the middle of midterms, which, in most classes, are one of two or three grades we receive all semester. So needless to say, they're kinda important. I had an Italian test and business midterm this past week, a comm midterm this morning, and a religion paper and midterm next week. Last week was very rainy and cloudy, so I didn't feel as guilty for having to spend so much time in the library studying. Two weeks ago, however, I did manage to carve out times between classes and studying to explore a bit more around the city. Some days I feel like the city is not very big and I know it pretty well, but then we come back from lectures and tours on Saturdays on the bus and I realize how much more I have yet to see. It's quite overwhelming to say the least. For example, I went to Trastevere (means "across the Tevere River") for the first time, which is where the ND students' study abroad program is based. Anna and I explored the back streets (again with Rick Steves tour book in hand), went into an awesome bakery, visited some churches (Santa Maria in Trastevere and the Basilica of St. Cecilia), and went past John Cabot University. It's a cute neighborhood with some less expensive restaurants and stores and supposedly has a great nightlife, so I will have to return there soon. I actually got a bottle of wine there for 2,50 euro. Score :) Trastevere is very close to us at the Hotel Tiziano. I've learned that we can practically walk anywhere, and even if it's somewhat far, a 1,50 euro bus ticket gets you there. Pretty handy to have this city at my exposure 24/7.
My command of the Italian language is unfortunately not improving, as everyone WILL NOT STOP speaking to me in English!! But the other day when I was coming back from shopping with Shannon (did I mention I bought my first pair of Italian leather boots??!), I was approached twice in about 3 minutes' time asking for directions, in ITALIAN. I mean, seriously, when I want to speak Italian no one wants to speak it to me, but when I'm out on the busy streets, people catch me off guard with it that I can't answer quickly enough! I have gotten so used to ignoring annoying street vendors and people trying to sell me stuff that it's hard to distinguish between who to ignore and who to greet. I was so flustered when this group of Italians asked me for directions toward La Fontana di Trevi that instead of saying "diretto e sinestra," I pointed straight and said, "and, uhh, then, left." Not sure why they asked me for directions in the first place--I think the blonde hair would be a dead giveaway that I do not in fact speak Italian or know where I am going! haha.
Last weekend we had our final Saturday lectures and tours. We visited Palestrina and Tivoli; the latter was probably one of my favorite tours so far. In Tivoli we saw Villa D'Este, which is a collection of gardens and over 60 beautiful fountains. We were all super excited about it because it is one of the places Lizzie goes in the Lizzie McGuire movie and it always looked so cool and pretty when I watched that movie haha. Yes, I compare my life and the sights of Rome to Lizzie McGuire. Don't judge me ;) While we were in Tivoli we also saw the Emperor Hadrian's Villa, which was super cool, despite the rainy weather. A lot of the archaeological sites we visit are left up to much individual interpretation so Dr. Hansen encourages us to guess and imagine what certain rooms of former palaces and villas were used for and why. One of the highlights there was seeing the "Maritime Theatre", which in fact is not a theatre at all, but most likely was the private dining room/escape for Hadrian at his villa. It is like a little round island surrounded by a moat and with grand pillars surrounding the outside. It is in places like these that, although often difficult to picture how the structures once looked, I form a mental picture that makes me feel one with history. It's almost incomprehensible just how ancient some of the things we see are.
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| Taking in the beauty of Tivoli |
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| Maritime Theatre at Hadrian's Villa |
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| Hadrian's Villa with lovely statue view in background haha |
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| One of the many amazing fountains at Villa D'Este |
Another recent happening in my daily life here has been the introduction of some campus ministry activities by the 6 deacons who work with the Saint Mary's program. Mass is offered with them and rotating priests every Sunday and Wednesday night, which I have attended since they began 2 weeks ago. Saint Mary's has it's own little chapel right across the street from our library/classroom building/office which is super cute and intimate. Actually this past Sunday night, only Annamarie, Cara, Shannon, and I showed up to mass because a bunch of the other girls were at an A.S. Roma soccer game. We were outnumbered by the priests and deacons (there were 5 of them) and all 4 of us did the mass parts (singing and reading) ourselves! We are getting to know the deacons well and they are all so great with greeting us by name when they see us. On Monday nights they hold "Godsquad" in the classroom building which is just an hour of discussion on different Catholic topics, especially as they relate to things we have seen or will see in Rome. The first one two weeks ago was an introduction during which each of the deacons told their individual stories of their journeys toward discovering their vocations. Each was very personal and unique, and it all reminded me that priests and deacons are not so different than any of us. All of them are very young, and when we remarked that it must have been a difficult decision to make so young, they said, "People get married young all the time, so why is this any different?" I had never really thought about it that way. Both are lifelong commitments, and both require sacrifice, just in different ways. These deacons are on a journey just like the rest of us and they are a really great addition to our program here in Rome. All of them are Americans studying in Rome at the North American College for a few years and a couple will be ordained priests next year before returning to the US to work in parishes. After Godsquad and masses, Deacon David who LOVES gelato invites us all to get gelato with him at his favorite gelateria, Frigidarium. It ranks right up there with Giolitti as they dip the cones in white or dark chocolate. So amazing. Going to mass is becoming a dangerous experience haha.
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| Mass to ourselves! |
In addition to Godsquad and masses, the deacons have organized several church trips throughout Rome that we can participate in. On All Saints Day, a few of us went with two of them to Campo Verano and San Lorenzo (both outside the city walls and accessible by bus). Campo Verano is a huge cemetery founded in Rome in the early 19th century for purposes of burying people from all different religious backgrounds, not just Catholics. The North American College has a mausoleum there which Deacon Nick and David took us to, in which former seminarians and priests from the college are buried. They said that since the college was founded in the 1800s, the seminarians would come over to Europe by boat, and if they died while here, this is where they would be buried. Campo Verano has thousands of other mausoleums for various religious orders and individual families and people are still buried there today. We also visited the adjoining basilica, San Lorenzo, which is apparently
the place to celebrate mass on All Saints Day because it is the basilica for Campo Verano. A Vatican Cardinal was saying mass while we were there, so we couldn't walk around the church very much or see the incorruptible saints buried under the altar, but we peaked in the church and walked around in the back section. There were several Vatican guards around, and when I asked Deacon Nick why, he said it is because the All Saints Day mass is the most important one of the year at this particular basilica and because it was a Vatican Cardinal celebrating mass. He added that Italians are also very visual people so they like to visualize the pomp and circumstance of the occasion. He said that the collar gets you a long way in Rome--he sometimes walks into the Vatican and when the metal detectors go off, the security guards just wave him through!
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| Cute little nuns praying at Campo Verano cemetery |
So much here revolves around Catholicism, and I think the natural mixing of church and state is so cool (such as All Saints Day as a legal holiday). Signs, monuments, stores, everything contain references to our faith, not to mention the hundreds of deacons, priests, and nuns I see walking the streets every day. Visiting churches, seeing tombs of saints and relics from their lives, and being able to walk just down the street to the Vatican are all amazing ways that make me feel at home here. Because no matter where you are in the world, Catholicism doesn't change. We all believe in the same creed, and whether it's spoken in Italian or English makes no difference. The important part is to bring ourselves back to the Eucharist for that gift of perspective. Last night at mass, Deacon Nick gave the homily about how professing our creed is a rebellious act because it is rebellious to reject the notion of loving ourselves as lord and instead be open to loving God as Lord with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength. He talked about how often when we're stressed or sad we turn our focus to ourselves and our own problems because we're afraid that no one else is going to fix those problems for us. We try to do it all alone to the point that we become selfish, making gods out of unimportant worldly things. I found these words to speak directly to me this weekend, as I had been going through lots of ups and downs myself. On Thursday, my roommates and I had to cancel our weekend trip to Cinque Terre because of the flooding and mudslides that were occurring there. We had planned this trip for the 4 of us weeks in advance, had everything all paid and figured out, and then at the last minute, all our plans went down the drain (along with a lot of money). I was bummed to say the least, that on our first 3-day weekend of the trip (we don't have any more Friday classes from this point forward) we missed our opportunity to travel. On top of that, I ended up sleeping late every day this weekend and feeling pretty lazy and unproductive. But if I'm being honest with myself, I did actually get to do some cool things right here in Rome this weekend: I went to the Vatican again, went shopping with some of my friends, explored Via Veneto and Via Nazionale, watched another fabulous Notre Dame win at Scholars, discovered a delicious cannoli shop (I've already gone there 3 times and the shop owner knew my order right away when I came in last night!), enjoyed a relaxing dinner with a view of the Pantheon, explored a few new churches, and accomplished a lot of studying yesterday. It's amazing how a change in perspective can change your whole mood. I of course was justified in feeling disappointed about our plans falling through this weekend, but really, how much do my plans mean in the realm of God's plans for my life? Perspective is key.
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| Cannoli heaven at Ciuri Ciuri....about a 3 minute walk from our classroom building! |
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| Dinner at the Pantheon on Saturday night...feeling blessed |
Tomorrow our whole program leaves for our weeklong group trip to Southern Italy. We will be staying in Naples and visiting museums and archaeological sites there in addition to in Pompeii, Paestum, Cuma, Posillipo, Capri, and the Amalfi Coast. It sounds like it is going to be a jam-packed 5 days, but hopefully with enough coffee I will be able to stay awake for most of it! I'm excited for our first excursion to another part of Italy since orientation in Assisi. I will blog and post plenty of pics next Sunday once I'm back home in Roma!
Thanks for keeping up with me :) Baci e abbracci a tutti!